Ever had a goal you aspired to achieve, only to have it shattered?

I am as a boat with out a rudder in strange seas,
A sailor with out a familair star to guide him home,
to safety, love, and warmth.

I am adrift with out aim or purpose.

Alien feelings crashes over the bow,
slicking the planks, drenching me
in coldness and despair.

Lethargy haunts my steps.

the sun has darkened,
the moon obscured,
the world has fallen into darkness...

*sigh*

For all the pain it brings, I can not help but fall for another.